I have previously written about the toll that extreme emotion can take on a child and how it seems an insurmountable challenge to bring back a bright, happy toddler once they have been gripped by such hypersensitive agitation. In that post I described sitting patiently with my daughter whilst she screamed seemingly endlessly before finally ridding herself of the emotion that was enveloping her. Over time, as she has become more verbal and we have been able to work with her respectfully through our daily lives, these prolonged outbursts have become far fewer and we have been able to bring peace about far more quickly using RIE guiding principles such as acknowledging emotions and sportscasting situations. Tonight, however, we had another one of those profound, awestruck moments of realisation and growth as a family when we helped our daughter work through some pretty intense feelings which hit right on bedtime…
My husband had taken Lucy through her normal bedtime routine of brushing her teeth, putting on her nappy and reading her some stories whilst she lay in her bed. Then, just before she was to receive her final kiss goodnight and lights out, she held up one of the books (a rather thick board board) and accidently dropped it on her face, hitting her square on the mouth. This brought about an instantaneous ‘that hurt’ cry as you would expect, but what we hadn’t expected was that this cry would go on long after the pain from the book would have subsided and she should have succumbed to tiredness. There were obviously some bottled up feelings that she was taking the opportunity to express in this moment and although it took as a while to understand what was happening for her, when we did we were able to cease upon our own opportunity to connect with our daughter, deeply.
Initially, my husband gave her some extra cuddles, trying to allow her some time to settle before we left her to sleep. She cried out for me a couple of times so I too went in and gave her cuddles all the while acknowledging how much it must have hurt when she dropped the book. Still unhappy about being left and completely unsettled, we decided to stay in the room with her whilst she fell asleep (a practice we have given up just this week) but she was still crying out and making unreasonable requests.
Eventually I decided to give in to one of her requests which was to sit in my lap, thinking that it would just be a one off and she was particularly wound up. But then my lap wasn’t good enough, she wanted Daddy back again, then she wanted to be in the bed, then out. We were simply going around in circles. We tried leaving her in there thinking she might just need to cry it out because as Magda Gerber says in her Dear Parents book “Some children really need to cry themselves to sleep. Sometimes just letting them cry those extra parent-painful minutes before sleep can be helpful.” But she just kept getting up and coming out of her room sobbing. Nothing, it seemed could rid her of her blues so that she could fall into her much needed slumber.
Finally, my husband took her back into her room and sat with her in the chair and as she cried out once again for Mummy, I took a deep (getting frustrated) breath and made my way in.
I looked at my little girl who was reaching out to me, pleading with me to make her better. And I knew that whilst she needed to go to sleep (it was nearly 2 hours after her bedtime) I first needed to connect with her in order for her to find peace and rest. So this is what I said in a calm yet confident voice.
“Lucy, you seem to be having such a hard time tonight. You are just not feeling very happy, huh? We can see that and we understand. (pause) It is way past your bedtime now so in a minute Daddy is going to put you in your bed. We know this might make you upset and it is ok to cry but we know it is important for you to have a good sleep so you will be ready for tomorrow. (pause) We understand that you may get upset when we leave but Daddy and I will be right outside and it’s ok to cry; really loudly if you need to. We will hear you and understand how you are feeling. (pause for a about 30 secs for processing) Daddy is going to pick you up now and take you to your bed.”
With that, my husband carefully put her in her bed. We said “Good night, we will be back to check on you in five minutes”. She rolled over, snuggled her cuddle bunny and without so much as a whimper, took a deep breath and started to relax under her covers. Within five minutes she was lightly snoring as we sat anxiously in the next door room, waiting for her to cry out
As I write this, I am still sitting here dumbfounded at how tonight’s events transpired. I have always been a firm believer in acknowledging a child’s hurt/anger etc but it was only recently after advice from Janet Lansbury , a teacher of the RIE philosophies who was mentored by Magda Gerber, that I have sought to encourage the expression of these emotions through crying and yelling etc and in fact welcomed them into our household. I had always used the acknowledgement of feelings as a way to restore peace when emotions were running high but that’s not how I should have been approaching it, well not exactly anyway. In these highly charged situations peace can only ever truly come after a child has shed these emotions through screams, yells, sobs and plenty of tears. Instead of trying to calm the tears quickly, it is far better to let the child know it is ok to cry, scream with anger, yell out in frustration etc. It is important for them to hear that we understand and support them even when they are feeling like this, in fact, especially when they are feeling like this! By accepting her emotions (unreasonable or otherwise) and letting Lucy know it was ok to express as she needed to, she found her own peace and I am quite sure she will wake a brighter person as a result, rid of her demons from tonight’s episode.